In order to be likable, in order to be attractive, in order to be happy, in order to make others happy, in order to love others, one first needs to take care of and love themselves.

So be kind to yourself, take care of yourself, and clean yourself, because how you see yourself is how others see you, and how you treat yourself is how you treat others.

Just like a tiny little rudder can change the entire course of a sailing ship, the solution is simply taking care of oneself.

- A thought inspired from the Lord to me.

For scripture study there are very little to no rules or regulations. I mean there are some, but it's not supposed to be this rigid robotic experience, it's supposed to be intuitive, inquisitive, sometimes linear, sometimes not, and you're just supposed to learn the Word of God. There are so many ways to do that. Sometimes you can read one or several chapters in a linear fashion. Sometimes you can dedicate the whole study session to a single verse. Sometimes you can read for an hour or two. Sometimes you can read for only 15 minutes. Sometimes you get what you put into it, and sometimes we need to study for less time so we have time to serve others. This is how study is. According to President Faust, an hour would be optimal, but 15 minutes, although meager, can be surprisingly uplifting and informative.

"Therefore, that we should waste and wear out our lives in bringing to light all the hidden things of darkness, wherein we know them; and they are truly manifest from heaven-

These should then be attended to with great earnestness,"

- Doctrine and Covenant 123: 13, 14

Sometimes things take time. Let all things be done on the Lords timing.

- The Lord (to me)

"Thy adversity shall be for a small moment, and if thou endure it well, thou shalt be [rewarded from on high...]"

- The Lord to Joseph Smith

Sometimes we can be cast down, but not destroyed, broken, but not defeated.

Let your light so shine before this people that they may glorify your Father who is in Heaven.

- The Lord (to me)

You can find yourself by losing yourself in the service of God.

- The Lord (to me)

I was pondering over whether I should allow myself to use my art skills and 3D and special effects software skills, considering the fact that they all seemed to me working for that which "rust and moths do corrupt" I received the following revelation:

"In terms of your art skills, special effects & 3D programming, - you should use these skills, as they were given to you by God."

- The Lord (to me)

"Minus the sin, you're basically the same you from the pre-mortal existence, almost exactly. You have the same strengths and you have the same weaknesses.

You're basically the same you that's been developing for an indeterminately long time before you were ever mortal. You've existed for how long and you've only been on earth for what, less than 100 years? Why would you be any different?! How much can you really change in less than 100 years out of potentially hundreds, thousands, millions, trillions, eternity, what mortal knows?? How different are you really?"

This isn't church doctrine, but it's what I believe to be a revelation, so I would strongly advise praying about it and finding out for yourself.

When it comes to daily scripture study, family scripture study counts as scripture study. It's studying isn't it?

The Lord (to me)

At the same time, the sons of Mosiah undertook the work with the knowledge that things might not work out, that "perhaps they might bring them into repentance," so keep in mind that we are not rewarded in Heaven just by the fruits of our labors, but because of our labors.

A fruitless field does not indicate failure.

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

"Just as the sons of Mosiah had to endure much hardship in order to do such a GREAT work in converting so many Lamanites, even so will we be required to endure in order to save the lives of those we intend to."

- The Lord (to me)

"5 Now these are the circumstances which attended them in their journeyings, for they had many afflictions; they did suffer much, both in body and in mind, such as hunger, thirst and fatigue, and also much labor in the spirit.

...

13 ...they supposed that great was the work which they had undertaken.

14 And assuredly it was great, for they had undertaken to preach the word of God to a wild and a hardened and a ferocious people;..."

- Alma 17: 5, 13, 14

(My favorite chapter in the Book of Mormon!)

Give to the poor!

You can do so by getting rid of all the stuff you don't need.

- The Lord (to me)

I was introduced to the coolest idea on how to improve my spiritual life, or life in general.

Basically you create a chart with two columns and several rows. In ONE column you write down things you need to improve on, and in the second, you write about how to resolve that issue or how to do better, and write down your answer! It's really cool, and the Lord gives HUGE blessings in helping and answering every question. Just him giving so many answers is a huge blessing beyond belief.

Here's how mine (Kinda) looks:

What I need to improve on	How I can do better
Go to bed early	Have patience with yourself. Remember sleep affects all that you do.
Use talents - Practice	Say prayers of gratitude, be charitable.
Go to temple more often	Actually PLAN temple trips. Do family history
Prayers of gratitude lasting too long	Set 30 minutes a day aside on your knees for this
Etc...	Etc...

But that's what I do!! It really helps clarify things, and we're nowhere near perfect, so actually completely following the list does take time, just be patient with yourself and get er done!!!

You should do better at starting to do family history by studying your family. This is more important than using your talents.

- The Lord (to me)

Nevertheless, you must use your talents, just like reading scriptures is more important than doing chores, but we still MUST do chores.

- The Lord (to me)

I was moving to Moscow Idaho with little to no planning or preparation and the Lord told me; "Ye will lack nothing."

Your talents are the means by which you may prosper you and your family and/or succeed in helping the world on a grander scale.

- The Lord (to me)

Without charity, those in dire monetary doom cannot receive the full blessings of the Lord, especially those that significantly help them, for with great power comes great responsibility, and where much is given, much is required.

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

"Let thy bowels also be full of charity towards all men, and to the household of faith, and let virtue garnish thy thoughts unceasingly; then shall thy confidence wax strong in the presence of God; and the doctrine of the priesthood shall distill upon thy soul as the dews from Heaven.

The Holy Ghost shall be thy constant companion, and thy scepter an unchanging scepter of righteousness and truth; and thy dominion shall be an everlasting dominion, and without compulsory means it shall flow unto thee forever and ever."

- Doctrine and Covenants

"He that loveth his life shall lose it, and he that hateth his life in this world shall find life eternal."

- Jesus Christ

The Lord has given us skills to use for that which is good. The Lord wants us to serve first and foremost, but he also wants us to be happy. In such he's given many blessings, many of which temporal or carnal, such as delicious food, comfortable couches, cars, and so on.

The use of these things is no more sin than entertaining oneself with their God-given talents is sin.

Use your talents for others and oneself, but most of all, SERVE HARD!!!!!!!!!

The Lord asked me to consider being a cop just for 1 year so that I could better see and understand the hard, mucky, brutal, miserable, and poor part of society, that I could understand how I can better serve them.

Something I want others to think about:

What could you do to with the skills you have to bless the world immediately around you?

I was pondering over the commandment to "put yourself last" and wondered that if I really wanted to put myself last, then I should therefore avoid a job I would enjoy, thereby allowing someone else to have the opportunity for the same.

I know this sounds like I'm thinking too hard, but this is a prompting I received in reply:

Get a job you like that makes use of your talents because if you are the right man for the job, you'd enjoy it, and thereby contribute better to your employer.

By working in a field you're passionate about, that passion pushes you much further and harder in the workplace, and you're capable of contributing that much more to your employer.

- The Lord (to me)

Stop trying to stop and discern the Spirit in every single instance. Just go forward and act in your best judgment, and the Spirit will guide and direct or redirect you as needed.

- The Lord (to me.)

Your family comes before your job, your school, your hobbies, and even helping the homeless. You must do ALL of these things, but when it comes down to having to choose one over the other, family always comes first. 

DO NOT NEGLECT THEM. EVER.

- The Lord (to Me)

Sometimes we need to think ahead and balance our time in such a way where we put off things that we know are going to get done almost regardless of circumstances (mostly) for things that are important that can only be done when we put time aside just for that thing.

For example, I just put off vacuuming the living room floor because I know it's going to get done eventually, so that I could set time aside to draft out an experimental education system I've been developing, something that I would probably only have started if I put time aside for it.

Use your skills to further the Gospel cause. They have a bigger impact on people than you know.

- The Lord (to Me)

The Lord wants you to be happy. I spoke earlier to Randall Bennet of the Seventy and he told me that there needs to be a balance of service vs. self help because the Lord wants you to be happy. He also said that he likes a "good burger" as an example of such.

This was his response after asking if "lust" referred to any desire other than service or fulfilling certain commandments such as being clean, or helping others.

The Lord just told me to be a bit less harsh on myself. I can tend to be that way whenever I mess up one way or another.

What about you? How can we love others if we don't first love ourselves?

What about the poor? The hungry? The shelter-less? The forsaken? The uneducated? The much less fortunate?

The dreams you dream of saving the world are given to you by the Lord for a REASON.

- The Lord (To Me)

Lust not after everything that is thine; Thy house, thy talents, thy food, thy car, and all other things that are thine, for they are not yours, they are mine.

- Words from the Lord to me

Leaders always eat last!

I've been developing a model for an alternative education system for quite some time now, but just recently received revelation to try to develop this system as a means to serve others.

What can you do to serve others? What do you know that you could share with the world?

Interesting experience with an odd context:

I was feeling really itchy for some reason, and felt prompted to pray that it would go away, since it was making quite the distraction from my prayers. (I was trying to pray, but was like "I'M ITCHY!!" and it wasn't really working out.) So I went ahead and prayed for the itchiness to go away.

The next thing I knew It just stopped. One moment my whole body was covered in pins and needles, and the next it wasn't.

AWESOME RIGHT????

That's the power of faith!

The Golden Rule states that we should treat others the way we like to be treated, but the Platinum Rule states that we should treat others the way they want to be treated. Both teachings I believe are from the Lord, but which one takes priority over the other, because the Platinum Rule does seem to make more sense than the Golden Rule to me, but the Golden Rule is what Christ taught in his ministry, so what do we do?

Pray about i!

Every cursing, just like every weakness, you have can be, and will be, turned around into a blessing if you endure it well. It is like unto when Adam & Eve partook of the forbidden fruit in the garden of Eden, and were cursed with seemingly harsh curses; Having to eat bread by the sweat of the brow, thistles and thorns, sorrow entering the world, sorrow in a womans conception, and her desire towards her husband as a ruler. 

All of these things seemed harsh, but without all of these, we wouldn't have families or be capable of conceiving, we wouldn't be able to reap the health and happiness of working for a living, we wouldn't know how to work, and we wouldn't know how to endure. We wouldn't have the family roles and structure that we now enjoy for our use and protection, and without sorrow in the world, we could literally never experience joy.

I realized this in my own life. Looking back and thinking over all the years in grade school, middle school, and high school, where I literally couldn't focus on anything except what I wanted to do, I often thought to myself, "What a cursing!" or "I wish it wasn't so!" I literally had the inability to stay awake when working on subjects that disinterested me. I tried soooo hard, but to no avail. I subsequently did poorly in school.
What I didn't probably realize was that if I had the ability to focus on all my schoolwork and had actually DONE all my homework, schoolwork, and was an actually active and attentive student, I would most likely never have became as good an artist as I am now.
(For those of you who don't know me, art is my staple skill. It gives me an edge in many alleys of my life.)
If it weren't for my academic weakness, I wouldn't be anything like the character I am today, and I wouldn't have ever developed the creativity, zeal, inspiration, talents, and personal rigor I now enjoy.
Something similar occured with my social skills. I literally grew up with none. I DID NOT know how to communicate. DID NOT. I struggled with loneliness and sometimes bullying for most of my adolescent life,
BUT
Without that weakness, I would have never tried so ridiculously hard to understand the human psych and social mind, and wouldn't have prayed so ridiculously hard for the same.
Well, study and prayers have paid off. I didn't just learned how to socialize, but I became very good at it.
(If you have struggled or struggle with the social skills, I have a resource for you to read at the end of this article that basically explains, aside from a LOT of prayer, how I figured it out.)

I am SO THANKFUL for my weaknesses, and I am SOO THANKFUL for all the strength I get from them!

In the sacred name of my savior, Jesus Christ, amen.

Your talents are given unto thee, you should use them.

 - The Lord to Me

Eat healthy! That means eat what you need. Don't overeat, but you don't need to under eat unless special circumstances require, such as ridiculously short lunch breaks or extreme poverty. Bottom line: put your self last. Eat and be healthy, because you need to be healthy to provide for your family just as much as you need sleep. So eat healthy, but put yourself last, and put yourself last by eating healthy. 

It's easy to assume that one shouldn't eat because those who share their fridges and food pantries with them will thereby have more food for themselves, and this is true to some degree, and very well intentioned, (I salute all those who willingly do so because they believe it the right thing to do. Very selfless of you!) But when you are the one providing for your family, or you are helping and serving others regularly, or you are doing chores around the house, or you and needed, then you need to be healthy and eating enough. 

Don't be selfish and always put yourself last. Don't be that person who selfishly overeats or gluts on every delicious thing before this fellows or family can have anything, but be healthy.

- The Lord to Me.

Pray for very large groups of people, such as the nation, the world, foreign countries, groups, tribes, governments, political parties, anyone. (Be willing!)

Pray for charity. ("With all the energy of heart.")

Weakness in one alley of life, (Physical, spiritual, mental, emotional, etc..) automatically carries over into every other alley of life. This means that when you don't get your sleep, you lose strength physically, AND mentally, AND emotionally, AND spiritually. This pertains to sleep, eating enough, developing seemingly insignificant or trivial bad habits, and even physical fitness! Bottom line: take care of yourself!!! Put yourself last, but take care of yourself! Amen.

Your body is a temple, so be healthy and take care of it!

The Lord often has you make hard decisions. Oftentimes he has you experience hardship and misery. Sometimes he even puts you at risk. This must be done, for without misery, there could be no joy. Without trial, there can be no strength. Without hardship, there could be no endurance, - lasting endurance, for as the Savior, Jesus Christ, suffered for the world, so would he have been put in such extreme danger if He were to break the commandments.

Go forth, have exceeding faith, and press forward.

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

(God always gives us our free agency.)

Because the Lord has granted my petition, made my weakness into strength, delivered me continually, continues to deliver me from everlasting damnation and the pains of Hell, and has given, and continues to give me much, I too must give and serve the Lord continually, for what a sin it would be to turn my back on God after so much blessing has been poured out upon me. 

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

This will sound strange but I felt prompted to share it.

I was listening to my institute instructor teach about certain hymns, and he began to relate a story where he was singing in a choir, and in that choir was a woman who was of the members of the Mormon Tabernacle Choir with an exceptional voice. While singing this woman began to break down in tears and was so emotional that she hardly could keep her own composure. Someone then implied that she had a spiritual thought, prompting, or experience, and then continued to ask if she was willing to share it. She agreed to do so after she had gotten her composure back together.

When she was finally ready to speak, she told the choir that she had received revelation while singing that she was one of the members of the Heavenly Choir before this life began.

I thought this was fascinating, and it reminded me of an idea I was once prompted with.

It was the idea that we existed for who-knows how long before we were born on this earth, and after existing for SO LONG, we were finally born.

That begs the question; How different are we REALLY?

I was pondering the question when something else came crashing into my mind: (Paraphrased)

"You have been given the spontaneous and uncanny ability to write and play music with wonderful proficiency. Who does that make YOU in the premortal existence?"

I froze up.

It's really interesting how the Lord uses the experiences of others to show you who you really are.

After pondering the question and running into a dead end I simply thought; "Who was I?"

"You wrote music for them." Was the immediate response. 

"Them" means "Heavenly Choir" in this context.

I sat in chills, took a deep breath and asked the Lord whether or not he just told me that I wrote music for the Heavenly Choir.

"Yes! You did!" I heard back as if spoken with enthusiasm.

...

We in this generation are considered the "Great and Notable Ones."

We are not "Great and Notable" merely by title.

We are great and notable because we were faithful in the premortal life, developed talents, obeyed Gods commands, and received fore-ordinations to serve in the callings wherewith we are to be called.

It is my belief that we dream of taking action and doing great good not merely for our entertainment, but because we are being CALLED to action.

With great power comes great responsibility, and YOU have been given great power to do good, I promise you. Otherwise you would not be a member of this generation. Pray about it.

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Ever skill and ability I have is a literal gift from the Lord, and all the motivation and excitement I get for the same labors and ideas, are also gifts from God to better complete the work or to better perform, better practice, begin, or excel at. 

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

I had another ridiculously interesting experience. I think "eye-opening" would be better verbage. I was sitting up after waking up to my morning alarm. I felt suuuper weary, and was contemplating going back to bed for a little bit. I sat for who knows how long, when I eventually just layed back down, mostly knowing I really shouldn't, but being too tired to think or rationalize what I was doing any more than I wanted to. So I laid there after falling asleep almost instantly, for maybe 5, 10, 15 minutes. The next thing I remember is me propping up, but I wasn't propping myself up, I was just getting propped up and getting abruptly woken in the process. I don't remember using a muscle in my body for the purpose of sitting up, other than my arms semi-flailing about as if to keep my balance, because it honestly wasn't my intention to go in the direction I was going. I was just moving.

I then sat there straight up on my bed, now wide awake, and realized that the Lord didn't particularly want me sleeping at that time. So I went ahead and said my morning prayers, said a prayer of gratitude for what I had just experienced, and got ready for the day. It was as if my legs just floated up and on the ground while my torso just kinda followed and propped itself up. It could've been as if I jerked my legs and rotated myself up, but I wasn't actually doing anything, just watching as I sat up on the bed, or as I was sat up on the bed. I mean I was asleep, and bam! I'm suddenly sitting on the edge of my bed, and I hadn't even fully gotten a hold of my waking senses yet.

I'm very grateful for these experiences!!!!!!!!!!! Amen.

For those of you who don't know me personally, I need to preface this entry by explaining a bit about myself;

I've grown up with very amazing abilities. I've been an artist my whole life, I LOVE to write music, I can dance, I invent, and I do parkour, and most people tell me that I am exceptional at all but 2 of those fields.

Along with all of that, I am a very curious person, like to philosophize, study people, and learn more about how the universe works. I love to teach and explain my ideas to people, and there's a lot I know that I would love for the world to know, so I teach things when I can.

In simple terms, I am not bragging, only stating this so this entry makes sense; many people consider me to be very smart and talented.

Again, not bragging, just making sense of this entry. It's just another thing I need to be VERY grateful for. 

Anyway...

I was pondering the knowledge given to me in surplus, thinking over how crazy it is for me to know, or seem to know, so much about certain subjects, wondering if the knowledge given to me is just the philosophy of an isolated, out of touch kid with a big ego, or actual knowledge of an inspired kid. I read the scriptures spontaneously landing in Daniel chapter 1.

I read about how Daniel refused the kings meat, and him and his 3 friends were given knowledge and understanding above all others. I then realized, my knowledge is mostly a result of the fact I have both given so much attention to TRYING to follow the commandments, and being healthy. 

Why would eating or being healthy just grant you knowledge? We're promised in Doctrine and Covenants section 89 that those who follow the Lords law of health, if not, try to be healthy throughout there lives, will find "great treasures of knowledge." This is easily overlooked!

"18 And all saints who remember to keep and do these sayings, walking in obedience to the commandments, shall receive health in their navel and marrow to their bones;

 19 And shall find wisdom and great treasures of knowledge, even hidden treasures;

 20 And shall run and not be weary, and shall walk and not faint.

 21 And I, the Lord, give unto them a promise, that the destroying angel shall pass by them, as the children of Israel, and not slay them. Amen."

                         - Doctrine and Covenants 89: 18-21

A while ago I came REALLY close to slipping back into unhealthy habits, but continued to avoid such decisions and actually felt prompted that such decisions would grant me knowledge. I realize the promptings have totally come true. All these things are gifts from the Lord, and I'm EXTREMELY GRATEFUL FOR THEM!!!

I talk the most in Sunday School, am one of the most talkative in institute classes, (I have my quiet days) have been given AMAZING knowledge concerning socialization and interpersonal dynamics, an abounding surplus of ideas, AMAZING IDEAS, and talents. 

I HAVE SO MUCH TO BE GRATEFUL FOR.

 26 "And the Messiah cometh in the fulness of time, that he may redeem the children of men from the fall. And because that they are redeemed from the fall they have become free forever, knowing good from evil; to act for themselves and not to be acted upon, save it be by the punishment of the law at the great and last day, according to the commandments which God hath given.

 27 Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and all things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself."

                - 2 Nephi 2: 26,27

I was just finishing up scripture study and wondering if there was anything else the Lord wanted me to go over before I finished. I consequently had a number of conflicting thoughts as to whether or not I should spend more time studying. (I had spent about 30-45 minutes already.) I felt prompted to look into my gospel principles manual, which I then would know what to do. So i opened up the manual and opened up to the "Work, Recreation, and Rest" chapter, which I then realized I was YET to get started looking for a job, and it was 4:45pm, SOOOO I guess I then knew I had a certain need to get working right away.

That which persuadeth to do good, and believe in God, is of God, but that which persuadeth to do evil, and believe not in God, nor in Jesus Christ, is of the Devil. So may you, with this intelligene, discern between light and darkness. 

- This passage is meant as an extension of the previous passage. They mix well. (They were actually meant to be the same passage.)

Concerning knowing the will of God in every instance and every small little thing where you think you need to inquire of him or be prompted by the Holy Ghost:

You not only have been given an intelligent mind with which to discern these things, but the Spirit of Christ, with which you may find you already know an adequate solution to these matters, and the Lord would prefer, in most cases, that you simply act on the best solution that comes to mind, and press forward, than to inquire of Him or wait for a divine prompting from the Holy Ghost.

If we are doing something wrong, he will correct us unless it is His intent to let us learn something. Either way, It'd be His will for us to act, and not wait to be acted upon.

Have faith, press forward, don't waste time.

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

"For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.

And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever." 

- 1 John 2: 16, 17

As someone who is not self-reliant, you can barely serve yourself, but if you WERE self-reliant, you would have so much more capacity to serve others not only in your family, but outside your family as well.

 - The Lord to me.

You need sleep not just for yourself, but because you need to perform well at work or be able to find work. You do a ridiculously poor job on low sleep and you easily become very cranky and mean.

When you are physically weak, you also become mentally, emotionally, and morally weak, so BE CAREFUL!!!

When you don't sleep, a lot of burden you could have taken care of gets shifted to others as well, and when you take these burdens upon yourself DESPITE low sleep, you can tend to do a very poor job. 

Ultimately, your family NEEDS you to sleep, so do.

- The Lord to me.

Other than the Power of God and the Holy Ghost, love is the most powerful weapon I have ever used or seen used. It's destroyed arguments, persuaded men to do things they otherwise never would have done, and caused others to consider, coupled by the Power of the Holy Ghost, things they NEVER would have otherwise considered. It's completely persuasive, and it is the tool I want to use as a parent. Not to do my will, but the will of my Father in Heaven. Amen.

I made a commitment with God that I would do ALL his will and then committed my life to his service. 

Sounds about right!!

I was saying my morning prayers, and was being pushed along or hasted by the spirit. So being unsure if I was being hasted by the Spirit or some other false spirit, I asked the Lord who it was, knowing that although my morning and bedtime prayers usually lasted a couple hours, I was taught in the scriptures that the spirit that teaches a man not to pray is of the devil. (Hence the reason I prayed for such long amounts of time.) 

I was then taught:

Prayer exists for the benefit of man, not man for the benefit of prayer. We pray for the day, theday does not exist wholly for prayer. Though at times, a day of prayer is appropriate, God wants us to LIVE and LEARN!!!

My supreme motivation and go-get-em attitude in regards to parenting is a gift given to me that I may all the more strive & achieve such things. This is, for example, obviously applicable to my huge motivation to be the BEST DAD I CAN BE!!! It is a gift. I should use it. I will use it, (in time) and I am wholly grateful for it!!! I thank the Lord for such things!!!
The Lord has given me supreme motivation to be an amazing father. I look forward to the day, and will build and better myself for the day, both now and forever.

I wanna be a great father. I want to be an amazing father. I need to learn certain things before I am a father, while I still have time anyway.

Spiritual Hope is like unto the desire to be redeemed, or the desire for faith, or the desire of the existence of the Kingdom of God. 

"I hope for the Kingdom of God."

I was just reading a conference address, and the impression came to my mind that I need to allow myself to better emulate the Savior & those role models I see that live more righteous lives than I do. I always see people who lead greater examples than I ever was, and it usually overwhelms me. 

I think: "Wow, I need to do THAT?" But that's okay. I need to be willing to do EVERYTHING the Lord wants me to do.

I need to be willing to lose my life in service. I don't mean I need to serve until I die of starvation or malnourishment or something, I mean I need to be willing to commit (and do) my whole life to the Lord's will, no matter how easy or hard it may be, and do so no matter the consequences, even until death.

I MUST SERVE!!!!!